Well I no longer get to plan a wedding :(
Early this morning Tim called me and told me that he didnt want to get married anymore. That we was rushing into things and that he was scared. And when i called him back later I was told that he felt smothered. That is how I was told that my engagement was over.
I feel so stupid for the fact that I let my guard down and this is what happens i get hit in the face. I feel humilated for telling people that I was engaged that now I have to tell them that I am no longer engaged. I feel hurt but mainly I feel stupid for going into bridal stores and looking at dresses and trying them on and wasting the bridal store employees time now. But mainly I feel stupid that I actually thought that i was getting married. I can't help but to cry cause i am that hurt.
How do you smother someone when you only spend a day or two a week with that person? I have yet to figure that one out. I dont understand how one day you are talking about getting married and the next being told you are smothering that person.
I let my guard down and this is what happens...